all.alone.

Friday, June 29, 2007

This Life.. Of Mine..

After the past few days of not bloging.. studying for my exams.. and spending time with my family.. and going out with my friends. there's some things i realise bout myself. and these are the bad things. firstly, man.. i really really really need to lose of the spare energy in me la. my body's kinda reacting to it le. time i go and do smth bout it.. or else.. it'll be worst. secondly, i know im the sort that kinda jealous easily.. so i better open my eyes big big.. and open my mind too. if not.. smth bad gonna happen i tell you.. my work, and games.. i gonna learn to balance them. if not, time will be never enuff for me to do my hw. my attitude.. i better change my manners and stuff.. i wanna be a pure gentleman =D

From here i say my aims, which will come true, even when i have given up, im sure, there'll be friends, family members, who will encourage me and support me. i wil achieve my aims. When i reach third year..
i'll
Be fitter and slimmer
Getting good results by then
Balancing time between work and play
last but not least,
My desire to be a pure gentleman. kind, caring and everything nice.

This i will achieve. though time is always short, it is better late, than never. then.. time for me to go. Good night all! oh ya.. 1 song xD

Wait For You lyrics by Elliott Yamin.
I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I’m missing you and I’m wishing you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know; so now I’m all alone
Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn’t give me a chance
With you not around it’s a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they keep runnin’ down my face
Why did you turn away?
So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to beSo baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of timeIf it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I find it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you
Been a long time since you called me(How could you forget about me)
You gotta be feeling crazy
How can you walk away(When)
Everything stays the same
I just can’t do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is and it just ain’t like that
Why can’t you look at me?
You’re still in love with me
Don’t leave me crying
Baby why can’t we just start all over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But you’re telling me it won’t be enough
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for youIf you think I find it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you
So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you’re keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be
Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for youIf it’s the last thing I do
Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of timeIf it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I find it just ain’t trueI really need you in my life
No matter what I have to doI’ll wait for you
I’ll be waiting …

Touching song.. waiting is part of everyday life. even if you're waiting for someone, just wait. cuz, no matter whether there is the waiting or not, the end result is still the same. what will be yours, is yours.

Bryan
all alone.
9:38 PM

Friday, June 22, 2007

This Life.. Of Mine..

NON BUDGET WAS FUN! and im very very tired now. got lesson later on. havent started my holi homework. im so dead.

addicted to granado espada.

Bryan
all alone.
12:49 AM

Monday, June 18, 2007

This Life Of Mine

wahahahahahaahhaahaaa. im going crazy! i just got a new laptop. lol. windows vista! but it's a compaq.. darnit.. the design is the same as every single compaq la =.= heck. im gonna love this new laptop la xD

bad thing.. is i need to redownload every single shit la. dammit. =.= i wanted to start my work today.. but gotta transfer. sian 1/2. lol. i also dunno what to transfer. oh well.

chionging this week le >.<

Bryan
all alone.
10:14 PM

Saturday, June 16, 2007

This Life, Of Mine..

These few days, been out with my family. cuz my dad's back from vietnam :) we been going out, walking around, spending quality time together as a big happy family. haha. my dad lend me his friend's ps3. and i gonna say. ps3, rocks. but i still prefera xbox360. there's more games i know to it.
just today, we went to get our new car. it's a honda. lol. but it is cool man! i wanna drive that car. lol. silver on the outside, black seat inside. haha. it just so damn cool la! my dad wanna get me a laptop :) im thinking on vaio. the sony one. haha! it loooks nice and cool! haha. but, im still waiting for it. lol. have not buy yet. lol.
i wish granado espada aint going to be psp. if not, i'll be bored to death once more. it's a great game. and i made some frens there. haha. 1 fighter 1 musk 1 healer. thats my combi. haha. it's common. i know. lol.
this sentence.. was what i said to my maple daddy, when he got depressed and stuff. and im kinda reflecting it back to myself. "No matter how dark your life is, there'll be a light, leading you out of the darkness, bringing you to the right path. You just need to find it." Oh well, this is life. not everything goes your way. i too wish for somethings to happen my way. but for some, i know, is impossible to happen, and even, it wont work :)
lol. nights.

Bryan
all alone.
1:12 AM

Thursday, June 14, 2007

This Life, Of Mine..

Diary Of Jane lyrics

This song explains my current state now. Fan4 was a nice show. Love the near ending. 4 powers to 1. it rocks.
Hope emily solves her problems. Le Duan get rid of that fella. Emily, i think i really do need a close friend. But, who will be my good friend? ANSWER : hard-to-find.

Bryan
all alone.
12:40 AM

Monday, June 4, 2007

This Life, Of Mine..

YES! AFTER MY DISAPPEARANCE... IM BACK! LOL. this like finally hor? haha. i was gone.. cuz..

1) Granado Espada! addicted to it now.
2) Tests
3) reports
4) lazy to type.
5) lazy
6) games xD

ok.. dun ask me why im listening to the girlfriend.. in jap version. lol. i find her voice kinda cute. LOL.

this song's kinda nice..

When We Die - Bowling for Soup

Well, I know that it's early and it's too hard to think
And the broken empty bottles are a reminder in the sink
But I thought that I should tell you, if it's not to late to say
I could put back all the pieces, they just might not fit the same

Cause nothing's worth losing especially the chance to make it right

And I know that we're gonna be fine
And the tattooed mistakes are gonna fade over time
As long as we live, time passes by
And we won't get it back when we die

Well, I know it's been years now, and I don't look the same
And the hopes and dreams you had for me you thought went down the drain.
And the room feels so empty where my pictures used to be
And I can't say that I blame you, but you can't blame me

Cause nothing's worth losing especially the chance to make it right

And I know that we're gonna be fine
And the tattooed mistakes are gonna fade over time
As long as we live, time passes by
And we won't get it back when we die

Come over
Come over

Cause I gotta know, if I am doing this all on my own

Come over
Come over

How can I show you if you're not here

And I know that we're gonna be fine
And the tattooed mistakes are gonna fade over time
As long as we live, time passes by
And we won't get it back when we die

And I know that we're gonna be fine
And the tattooed mistakes are gonna fade over time
As long as we live, time passes by
And we won't get it back when we die

Come over
Come over

Wooohooohooohaaaaawwww

Come over
Come over

Wooohooohooohaaaaawwww

Come over
Come over

(I gotta know)
(And we wont get it back when we die)

And I know that it's early

sorry ah.. no music to play. lol. im to lazy to go and find. haha. if you wan the song, you can come and ask me xD msn - silver_bluez@hotmail.com. ^_^ my hp.. err.. maybe not. lolx. but this song.. really meaningful.. when we die.. or rather.. 1 day b4 your death.. what would you do? maybe. spend time with your love one? as for me.. i'll..

1) spend time with my family, i havent been close to them
2) if i like someone at that point, i'll just tell the person directly and im gonna mati the next day.
3) go to all of my friends, and thank them for being my friend, and how much i am really grateful for knowing them. cuz, without friends, i wont be here. im the type, that cant just survive alone. i need friends ^_^
4) try to correct what i even did wrong.
5)die peacefully.

now i ask you people, what would you all do if you all were to die tmr. just like that? i know its hard to think, but it may happen anytime. im not cursing anyone. im just stating facts. What if tommorrow never comes? sighs. many things i done, i wish i can turn back the clock, correct them. lead the type of life i want to.

for my past 2 tests.. i did average. cuz of grando espada i didnt study much. reports also. wed is my BIA test.. i hope i do mean my words.. when i say that i'll off the damn com and study for my BIA test. THIS I REALLY REALLY MEAN IT! games can wait. my life is more important.

LIBRA - The Lame One
Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind.
Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will
ever meet, however not the kind of person you want to mess with you
might end up crying.

this is my horo.. the lame one?
nice to everybody?
my love is one of a kind? wth? im like not interested in anyone? (this i think i'll be like single forever)
silly? fun? sweet? omg? i got like this?
own unique appeal? ok.. wth does this means?
most caring person? pls la.. this is so not me..
i dun make ppl cry when im angry =.=

hmm.. nth else to say xD nights all. may your day today's tomorrow be better than today. and even better than today's yesterday.

to end..

During this dark cold winter night,
you'll be there beside me,
keeping my heart warm with your love,
lighting up my soul with me seeing you,
my mind is going crazy with the thoughts of you,
as i held your hand,
holding you close,
it felt as if this moment could last forever.
=D

NIGHTS! it great being able to blog again ^_^

Bryan
all alone.
11:33 PM